"I'm not like other girls

You can't straighten my curls"

lol  I should play that song for Chris the next time he tells me my hair is "nappy" and I need to straighten it.  He hates curly hair.  Heh, he sure fucked up when he married me then.

I haven't been sleeping well lately (still) so Chris is gonna take Lanz to school tomorrow since he's off work. 

*sigh* Guess I'll try (again) to go to sleep...

Today I feel kinda...:	awake
Rockin my chubby little world...:	P J Harvey

We filed slowly, languidly into the hall
The auditorium was vast and silent
As we seated and were darkened, the voice continued.

The program for this evening is not new
You've seen this entertainment through and through
You've seen your birth your life and death
you might recall all of the rest
Did you have a good world when you died?
Enough to base a movie on?.

I'm getting out of here
Where are you going?
To the other side of morning
Please don't chase the clouds, pagodas

Her cunt gripped him like a warm, friendly hand.

It's alright, all your friends are here
When can I meet them?
After you've eaten
I'm not hungry
Uh, we meant beaten

Silver stream, silvery scream
Oooooh, impossible concentration

I am feeling so weird today. Yesterday was like this strange trip to days better forgotten.
Chris and I cleaned out our spare closet and I cannot believe all the things I've kept. Tapes, oh shit, we spent more time digging through our old tapes and records than we did anything else.
Last last night Tara was at Kati's and she sat in the bedroom with me and Kati and we were talking about all kinds of stuff.
It was just kinda weird that it all happened in the same day. Not to mention the fact that it's the beginning of a new year and aside from a few new faces I spent New Years Eve with people from the past...and the movie! Oh shit, I just remembered that movie was on.
I think I'm having some sort of breakdown now. What if it's like a midlife crisis to my actual midlife or something.
I told Kati that me and her were getting drunk this weekend.
Was it too soon? It was getting to the point that I was sure it would be "The End" if I didn't stop. I could see it getting really bad. I had been to that place too many times. I was ready to stay there.
No, I was right to forget him, them, those...and I need to forget again.